Are we?

"Take my hand
Let's see where we wake up tomorrow"

And you lost yourself to someone

That you want yourself to lost into.

But no, wait

You don't want yourself getting lost into them.

You want them.

To get lost together with.

Sometimes, it works.

Sometimes, it doesn’t.

Most of times, it works at the first

And then it doesn’t.

It just stops in the middle.

”So let's get drunk on our tears”

Tears? What tears?

Have you ever get hurt,

Without any scars

Because, well, nobody hurt you anyway

You just.. get hurt by yourself

By thinking too deep

Or trying too hard

Maybe holding too tight

Or reaching too far

Then there will be no one to blame.

Let’s just get drunk on it.

“And God, tell us the reason
Youth is wasted on the young”

Some people happen to be mature enough to sail through their waves,

when the others are not.

Some people still looking for reasons to continue living,

when the others are making one themselves.

“Searching for meaning
But are we all lost stars
Trying to light up the dark”

We all find one, eventually.

We'll create the meaning,

we'll draw the lines,

and we'll write up the story.

"I thought I saw you out there crying
I thought I heard you call my name
I thought I heard you out there crying"

But, it’s just my thought.

(Lost Stars - Adam Levine)

How much failures can be handled by one person in a year?

I was randomly thinking about this failure, since I've got much this year.
In what point could a person stop surviving and start cracking into pieces?
Would this related to the way he/she face it?
Or would this just another issue of time healing?

Everybody must have been through failures, that is clear.
But actually, there is some of them that you refuse to make peace with.
In any reason.
It may caused by the falling dreams, or the broken hopes.
It may also caused by the act of letting go. Or not letting go.

"Now and then I pace my place
I can't retrace how I got here
I cheat the light to check my face
It's slightly harder than last year"
(Born and Raised - John Mayer)

You see your own failures as lessons, wisely said.
They do not wisely ask:
How would you see your loved ones' failures?

Why don't you play the game?

Oh, I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true
(Digital Love - Daft Punk)

Last week, I was randomly going to cinema and pick random movie.
So I watched Transcendence.

No.. this is not a review post. I'm not really good at this.
It's about the whole point of the movie I think they want to tell us.

About some kind of digital love.
A couple of mad scientists playing God.
And eventually make major trouble.

About some kind of technological extreme development.
A couple of mad scientists playing God.
And eventually make major trouble.

Related to our life these days, they harshly made film to mirrored us ourselves.
Where we made more digital contacts than direct.
And trust machine more than human being.
Can live without eating food for a day but can't without charging phones.
Just.. Well, fuck me. I've been DIGITALLY online since 7PM and I'm writing this thing.

Tempus fugit, non autem memoria

So, yes darling

For those who had bumped this site years behind, might concern I got one post titled exactly the same.

“Time flies, but not memories.”

One fav line of mine, a Latin quote from Antologi Rasa by Ika Natassa. Great local lit with light urban plot.

The first time I read that novel, in late 2011, there was a strong bond between me and the words. It’s like everything she wrote on that, explained anything unspoken going on thru my mind. And I was just “God, she’s right” over any quotes written.

Years later, 2014, right now I’m re-reading this as a kind of escape from current time.

Still I love how she combines every paragraphs into different views and brings emotion thru the characters.

And I’m like, uh, such a pity I’ve been going on times not having an urge to read any literatures. I missed everything, right?

Well, what do you think?

Time flies, but not memories.

It’s just.. memories also fly away, don’t they?

Because if they don’t,

Why do we need any photographers to capture our wedding day?

Why do we need any diaries to describe our feelings on the first day of school?

Why do we need any times gather with old friends reminiscing great moments?

Because if they really don’t,

Why do we need to learn History in school?

Why do we need to keep important documents on a water-and-fire-proof boxes?

Why do we need to make any scrapbooks of our kids’ growth?

As a soul fly, memories follow.

Appreciate what you can’t buy, what you wish you can give everything in the world to have, but can’t.

”And in my dreams, I meet the ghosts of all the people who have come and gone

Memories, they seem to show up so quick but they leave you far too soon

Naïve I was just staring at the barrel of a gun

And I do believe that, yeah”

(High Hopes – Kodaline)

Live life to its fullest

"Let's make this fleeting moment last forever
So, tell me what you're waiting for?
I'm gonna keep it frozen here forever,
There's no regretting anymore."
(Krewella - Alive)

Why would you like when you can love?
Why would you smile when you can laugh?
Why would you hold when you can hug?
Why would you be good when you can be awesome?
Live life to its fullest.