17/03/2020 - Day 3 Self-Quarantine

Let's skip the movie talk today.
I did watch a movie, The Purge, but nothing important we can conclude from it. Except for the blatant fact the movie points out about how the nicest people could turn into beast to protect their loved ones.

Let's discuss reality.
How it happens on earth right now.
On the verge of crisis, society once again fails to exhibit humanity values.
My parents are both doctors. They work at a local hospital no more than 10 kilometers away from my house. My father runs the hospital chain, knowing every facts and issues they have had from +10 years ago. Yet he doubt his experience would hundred percent helpful for this pandemic handling measures.

He said that some of the healthcare workers at the hospital are resigning, or at least filing their request. Doctors, nurses, even security guards.
Wait, what? They avoid contracting the virus by running from them, not fighting on them.
I know it sounds bad. But seeing from their perspectives, they might have an elderly to look for in their houses, or siblings with complex diseases, or newborn babies. Who knows?
The only thing we can rely on, is their willing to sacrifice by helping those strangers in need. And it's expensive. Are we wealthy enough to pay for it?

We had never really prepared for this. Our healthcare system and infrastructures are obviously not ready. How about the workers?
Here is a short insightful article about Occupational Groups who face the greatest risk of being infected by Covid-19. https://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2020/03/15/business/economy/coronavirus-worker-risk.html

This graph shows group of professions who are most likely exposed directly to the disease and/or to the infected patients who carry the disease. Each bubble represents an occupation, the bigger it is, the more people do that job.

Healthcare workers are at greatest risk. They can encounter diseases and infections daily through their regular jobs and they typically work in close proximity to one another and their patients.

This is an obvious fact, but at least it can remind us how important the role of healthcare workers are in this kind of situation. A situation my father once called, a healthcare warfare. (..um, John is that you?) Anyway, hop to the original article site so you can check what do each of the bubble represent and how much they earn.

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Today also remind me about my childhood dream of being a doctor.

I once fought so hard to get into medical school and I lost it.

But actually, the thing I lost first was my initial reason of pursuing it.

In the middle of the fight, I forgot why I did it.

I forgot about the nights when my mother dropped me off to Grandma's house because she had night duty at the ER. Some nights she could catch a quick sleep in between patients, some nights she was busy saving lives.

I forgot about the months my father wasn't home to be with me, wasn't even in the country, to pursue higher study so he could be better in saving lives.

I forgot about the years our family had just enough for basic necessities, but not enough for my tuition next month, so Mom tried to find another job because apparently having an MD and save lives still couldn't pay the bills.

I forgot about those moments, yet I still insist on going for it.

I failed, most of you might know already.

Twice.

I don't know. Would it be different if I remembered all those things?